Keep calm and carry on

R-E-S-P-E-C-T..... Well, miss Aretha, I am not sure what it means to me, as I feel I get very little of it at work. It's been a few months now of me working six days a week. It's getting very tiring. Yesterday, I was actually on my own. Luckily I only saw about 20 patients, which is extremely slow at work. I was a the only doc on and started my day with a 5 yr old boy. I did retinoscopy and found -4.00-3.00x090 roughly in both eyes... I couldn't get him better than 20/40- in each eye, but prescribed a partial rx and will see him in 3-4 months... The exam, although I do not like working with children, went fairly well on the child part... However, the entire exam the mom kept calling me hunny and sweety. When I walked into the room, in business attire, white coat, with Dr. clearly embroidered on it, she turned to her son and said " oh yeah! Look you got a girl, or a pretty girl to look at your eyes" .... I swallowed my pride and said nothing, but the 5 years of intensive study, in which I learned how to not let your son grow up blind, simply went down the drain. That wasn't the worst of it though. I work in a very fast paced office, I see a lot of patients, and the only way to do so is to have a good staff. We call them "acuity girls". They call themselves "cutie girls". But whatever. So normal I have one and then there are one ro two backups to help my girlnout. Yesterday, I was the only doctor on. That meant there were 5 acuity girls at my disposal. My fav girl doesn't work Tuesday's, but I thought I would make due. So when need them, I just page them to a room.... And for some reason it took them ten minutes to come in, if they came at all... There were few patients to see, they don't have much busy work to do... So what was the problem? They don't respect me. I'm not a boss, I don't have the authority, nor would I, yell at them... But I was thoroughly annoyed. Part of it is laziness on their part... For a group of young ladies that complain about money and lack of welfare, they could seriously do a lot better if they actually just did anything.

Anyways, after brewing about this yesterday, I went home, got some work done, slept well and woke up this morning. I don't go in to work until ten, so I got ready, made a giant cup of coffee and watched the today show. I grabbed my phone to put in my purse and noticed a bbm ' how do you do it?' it said... I replied with what? And saw in reply, 'how are you good just being on your own. You seem so happy and not to care' Clearly, this friend does not read this blog haha... I didn't know if I should be offended by this statement or not. I mean, I really am perfectly fine on my own. I can do anything I want to do, I've never needed a man, but tht doesn't mean I like being alone. she is moving away from a boy she really likes, and is sad about it and that's understandable. Life is hard enough without those little wrenches in perfectly good relationships. I went away for a ski weekend with friends recently (yup finally took a vacation day - second in 8 months! ) anyways, everyone was married, engaged or in a serious relatnship. One friend had a serious boyfriend that just got promoted at work and thus moved to Arizona. Now that's a serious wrench. They've been visiting each other the past few months, but in the end she will probably have to move out there to be with him. Even if it seems to be like a whole tool box of issues, shell get through it... As I guess we all have to. So, not really sure how to respond.... I think in life, things just don't seem to work out the way you expect, or really the way you think you deserve for them to be... So, it's on you to try your best, and if it doesn't work? Respect yourself enough to try again....

Hopped in the mini and headed to work, fingers crossed today that someone will actually respond to a call... But if they don't, I'll just explain to the patient in the best Spanish I can, clean my own instruments, and put the patients in the room myself....

Red eyes for valentines

The time has come the walrus said, to talk of many things... Of shoes and ships and sealing wax... Of cabbages and kings... Of why the sea is boiling hot and whether pigs have wings.... Growing up, I always wondered what ceiling wax was, picturing waxy balls filling in the cracks on the roof over my head... Anyway... I've been thinking, the time has come... The lovely month of February.

The halls are decked in reds and pinks and hearts and stars... Every email I get from open table to pro flowers to groupon has something to do with the dreaded valentines day. I'm reminded every day that I'm single and alone... I do not need one built up hallmark holiday to make it sink in any worse.

I've been filling my time with writing a case study on epidemic Keratoconjunctivitis. It's apparently really the time of year for reds and pinks, as every walk in eye is glazed over in some shade made for the holiday season. Three patients alone, this morning have come and gone... Rooms disinfected, and my hands washed close to a million times to make the. Match that red raw hue... Ironically, you could sayv EKC is the eye disease of love... It's passed so easily from eye to eye, from a hug, to a make out session... Families and loved ones pass it to each other as recklessly as a valentines day card.

Oh,Valentine's Day..I think back to last year... I woke up early in Key Largo, ran out to get coffee and muffins and came back to the hotel to find a Teddy bear in red scuba gear and a box of chocolates... I had no idea what to do... I wanted to eat the entire box that moment to dispose of the evidence... It was my first actual valentines day present and it completely freaked me out. We had breakfast, went scuba diving that morning, relaxed with a few beers on the porch that afternoon and went to a fancy restaurant for dinner... It was a perfect day,
well a perfect weekend... And I'm afraid it was my last hahaha

So, ive been writing a lot of prescriptions for Pred Forte with antibiotic ointment coverage... Fingers crossed I don't get the infection myself... But I might as well write a prescription for myself this season ' Happiness without worry 100% sig i/i QAM-QHS Every day'

Happy Valentines Day to my readers who are luckily all in relationships and without eye infections!<3