Ahhh so I havent been so good at this blogging thing... I apologize dear friends... Life has been good and bad and fun and interesting... and so Ill give you some highlights...
Recently I became an Aunt. I never knew I could love something so tiny in an instant. He is a beautiful little boy that sleeps well and makes a killer Blue Steel look. He is adorable and I am only sad that he and my sister live so far away. My sister is my best friend. We are so close, you can imagine how hurt I was to be told I wasnt the godmother... I wasnt going to complain, but one of the reasons behind it? Because I am single - who would the godfather be? (I cried for 3 days)
So, big surprise - still single! I have been working a lot more which has been good. With it, I have decided to get back out there on the dating seen. I signed up again for an online dating site. Ive browed around and waited a while for some guys to message me... certainly have gotten some winners - my last message was from a guy who wrote "you probably wouldnt date me... but I have something for you if you let me give it to you" Im not only totally grossed out, but freaked out that this is what is out there... so when I stumbled upon a guy who was not only cute, a fellow doc, but was a scuba diver, I was excited... He built his computer too - which totally reminded me of my old roomate J. Living with a boy was great - all I had to do is cook for him and he would kill all the mice and we would spend every Sunday drinking beer, eating pizza and watching football. It was great and I totally had a crush on him... unfortunately he has the worst girlfriend ever and nothing ever came of it... Weve lost touch and I miss him a bit, so was excited to date his replacement...
Side note, earlier this week I went to book club. Yes, Im a bit of a nerd and more importantly a girl who likes her wine. We of course discussed the book for all of ten minutes, since only three of us even read it... At the table were two single gals, two married and an engaged lovely lady. As a single gal, I constantly feel bad about being alone. Not because I dont actually really love my alone time and not having someone tell me what to do, but because there is this giant stigma around it. Anyways, one of the married girls chimed in saying married life aint that grand. She had recently spent the holiday going between her and her husbands families houses. She was tired of driving, didnt get much sleep and came home to a house with an empty fridge. She and her husband were starving and decided to make dinner out of the potatoes, eggs and tortillas they had. The tortillas were old and her husband went through each one until he found one without any mold. He gave it to her. As she told this story, the ending connotated that that was all you had to look forward to...
So, I emailed the only guy I thought I could get along with and met up with him tonight. After all, Im single and part of a book club - Im kind of a dork and a bit of a loser. He was cute and was certainly nice... but after the conversation got to the time he spent in his basement playing dungeons and dragons or the raves he has been too - I realized this is not the guy. He was nice though, the date wasnt at all unpleasent. Although he said he really doesnt drink, and I may be lame but I am a happy alcoholic and that will just not fly. I just want to meet a guy thats fun and smart but also knows how to fix things and likes sports and beer... too much to ask?
I left the date saying I had fun, but lets call it a night because I was tired (aka I was tired of smiling and certainly running out of things to ask).
But onwards and upwards... one day there will be a godfather and I very much so hope he is kind enough to give me the one tortilla sans mold...
